So tonight i have my first date in nearly two years but thats not why im scared on no if it were that simple i would be fine. the thing is this date is with a long time friend, its dan fidgett which i know means nothing to all of you so here is the thing i met fidgett 4 years ago at liquid's under 18 night and we started to go out it was only silly and hand holding but since then there has always been something there between us and now we are doing something about it. so yes im worried but i really dont know why fidgett ahs seen me at my worst and best and he still wants to be with me. he knew me when i was a size 16 (now 10) and still fancied me so why. i think its cos i really like him i always have.

but apart from being scared things are great im enjoying my job my health is getting even better and im making things again i have started to make a patchwork quilte it is looking very good very 1930's art deco.

so all is good and i really hope everything tonight is amazing. im sure it will be he has never let me down before.